Being Teachable

I been thinking a lot about what makes me alive and motivates me to go forward. After much pondering, one that came to mind is learning. I love to learn and digest what I have learned. I love the feeling of learning and coming to understand what I have been taught. I was not always teachable. I used to be stubborn and set in my ways. I think I learn to be teachable when I went to college and from there I just wanted to learn as much as possible. I am lifelong learner and I hope I continue to be teachable. When I was younger, I did not want to learn or try new ideas or actions. I wanted to walk in the old ways and stay clear of the new ways. With time, I came to appreciate learning new ideas or actions. In my Christian walk, I strive to be a disciple of Christ and I feel like I am continuously learning about what it really means to have a Christ-centered life. Learning excites me and I wish I can be a lifelong professional student but I remember I still need to pay my bills so I have to make a living by working in a job. Deep inside me, I want to learn and take the challenges that come with learning. Currently, I feel stuck and I do not know if I am being challenged enough in my life as whole. I kind of wish I was back in college or graduate school and learn about some subject that may interest me. One of my favorite hobby is sports. I feel like I have so much to learn and understand certain sports. For example, I love baseball and cheering for my teams but secretly, I want to understand how to keep count and mark it down on the scorecard. I just find it fascinating when fans at the ballpark write on the scorecard. All I do is cheer for the team and try to follow the game much as possible. To be honest, I think I would love baseball even more if I understand the game much better. Another example, the Bible. I love the Bible and there is so much to learn about in the Bible. I think sometimes I just merely read the Bible and miss the lessons or points that God may be teaching me at that moment. There's so many other examples and I want to continue to learn. I believe that if I was not teachable then I would not be the person I am right now. I learned to take care of myself when I had to move away from my family. I learned to enjoy variety of food and eating new types of food. I learned to speak another language other than my native language. I learned to appreciate being photographed and taking photos to capture the moments. I am slowly learning to say no when appropriate and learning to rest. Life is full of lessons I need to learn and I hope I continue learning even when I am very old. All this to write, I want to be teachable and learn as much as possible.Thanks for reading and may Christ love fill you up today.

"Teach me your way, O LORD, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name." -Psalm 86:11

Rest

I learned my lesson today and it's a repeated lesson. Past week, I was doing activities non-stop and this morning I felt the effect of it all. My body was telling me that I need to stop and rest. I stayed at my apartment and took my sick leave today from work. My friends were having a get-together but I had to forgo on that. As much as I like to do stuff with my friends, I am realizing that if I don't care for my body then no one else will. I am not a robot that can function continuously, even robot will stop if it's energy source is gone. It was nice to just rest and recharge. I think I need to seriously look at what all I am doing and have a time when I can rest. May you find rest and peace in Christ today!

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body." -1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Joy in the LORD

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12

Where does my joy come from? The hope of Christ. Lately, I feel like I have been lacking in the joy department. Circumstances surrounding me have detract me from having that joy that it has made me feel down and discouraged. However, my close good friend prayed over me via email today & almost brought tears in my eyes as I read the words she wrote with encouragment to my heart. She prayed in her email that God will restore the joy in my life and that really struck my heart. I think I let the world suck me into thinking that I need to worry rather than trust in Jesus only. Whatever situtation I am, I just need to give it to the LORD rather than thinking it over in my head and leading to unnecessary stresses. I think I need to spend more time in the Word and prayer. Hope in Christ. Joy in my heart. Thankful that this life is not about what I do but the glory of His name. May Christ fill your heart with joy and peace! Thanks for reading!

Season of Learning

"Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:14

It's been a while since I last wrote an blog entry and I feel like it was just yesterday when it was the start of the new year. Last month was my one year anniversary working in my current position at my company. I am getting in the work routine and slowly what I am doing at my job is not as challenging as I first started. I am grateful to be working especially in this economy but I just feel like I could be doing something more with my skills, talents and gifts. However, in my heart, I feel a tug that saying I need to wait. Although, I may not know the role that my current job position will play in the future, I will continue to learn much as possible until I am called do something else. A phrase that really stuck out to me in this weekend's Pastor Mark's message was 'every opportunities is a preparation for the future.' Right now, I feel like I am stuck and wish I knew what exactly God is calling me to do in life. I have this sense of wanting to jump into something new but I also have this conflicting side of me that says I need to learn to be patient. I think learning to wait is a constant lesson I am faced with since I graduated from college. I think God is trying to teach me to trust Him and rely on Him more than anything else in this world. I am learning that I may work hard and strive to give it 200% in my job; however, I need to let God direct me rather than me trying to take action on my own. I am stubborn and independent when it comes to asking for help. These days, I feel like I ask God for help so much. Part of me want to hold on to being stubborn and independent but I know that I need to let go and let God work within and through me. I am also learning that I am human being and I cannot constantly keep myself busy. I need to stop and breath. I am learning to take one day at a time and not try to finish everything that day. God is so gracious and patient with me. He demonstrates His love over and over again but I seem to need that reminder over and over again. My prayer is that I will learn to wait for the LORD and patiently learn the lessons He has for me. Also, I pray that He will teach me to love people as He loves us first. So much to learn and so much to soak in all the lessons. I am very thankful for the opportunity to learn and all the people who are in my life to help me with the lessons. May God give you the opportunities to learn and give you joy in your life! Thanks for reading!

What's to Come ...

First off, Happy New Year!!!!

Now that's off my chest, so far it's been a good few days into 2010. I don't know where God is leading me but this I know, I eagerly wait for the LORD. It's been three years in Washington, DC and how time flies. There's a lot I am thankful for but there's a lot of questions of my future. I feel restless some days with what I am doing in DC. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for what I have in my life so far but I get this sense that there's got to be more to what God wants to do through and in me. I feel like maybe I am selling myself short or maybe, I am suppose to just wait. Right, waiting. Did I mentioned that I am not good at being patience? Outwardly, I may seem patience but inwardly I am not patient. As I go into this new year, I want to work on being more patient and wait on Him. I desire to become more like Christ in everything I say, act and do. I want to love God like Jesus did. I want a heart that reflects my heavenly Father and bring Him glory. This seems impossible but with Christ, everything is possible. I want more Spirit of God to live in and through me. I want to listen more and talk less when I pray to Him. In the silence, He is there. I want to put Him first and get rid of the idols in my life. What are the idols of my life? What controls me? What do I serve? How can I remove the idols in my life and put Him first in my life?

There's a lot to pray and think about. I am excited about what's to come but also scared about it too. I should not be afraid. I am going to be bold and courageous in Christ who believes in me when everything may seem confusing and chaotic. Peace of Christ. May the peace that only Christ can give be with you today and know that He loves you more than you can imagine. Thanks for reading!

Eve of New Year's Eve ...

"Praise the LORD. Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; His love endures forever." Psalm 106:1

Here I am again since I have lots of down time at work due to finishing my workloads plus some workloads of my coworkers who are on vacation.

I can't believe 2009 is almost over and 2010 will be here in no times! What a year it has been! There were good times and bad times in 2009. Most people I talked to are ready for 2009 to end and 2010 to begin. I have mix feelings about it. I think I am ready for 2010 and what it will bring but I also enjoyed what I did in 2009.

Although I will somewhat miss 2009, I am looking forward to what 2010 will bring. I am waiting on the LORD and what He will do in and through my life. I been thinking a lot about going to law school or even start thinking about a new job or even a promotion to my current job. In all this thoughts though, I am grateful for what God has done in my life thus far. I am so thankful that God has provided for me time and time again. I am thankful that I am working and have a church family. I am thankful for my family who prays and thinks of me constantly. I am thankful for friends who encourage and challenge me pretty much daily encounters. If I can come up with what 2009 means to me it would be being thankful.

What are you thankful for this year? I want this next year to be filled with thanksgivings and new adventures. I wait eagerly for the LORD and I hope He will fill you with peace and love beyond words. Thanks for reading my blog! Cheers!

Reflection

I can't believe it's been a while since I last wrote on my blog. Sorry. Life has been crazy busy. New friends, old friends. Busyness of life.

With everything going on, people would say I am happy and content. Am I? I feel like there's more to life than what I am doing right now. I am content with my job but it's not what I am passionate about. To be honest, I have been in this funk these past months and I desperately want to get out of it. I want to feel alive and live the life that God has created me to do. I want to go and do His will. As much as I want to just take the risk, I feel like God is telling me to wait. Wait and pray.

Patience is not one of my strengths, actually it's a weakness of mine. I do not like waiting so I try not to be late so that the other person will not wait on me. However much I hate waiting, I think that I just need to wait. Wait on the LORD. Where is He leading me?

As end of the year approaches and new year begins, I want to make a covenant with God and strive to live a life that is pleasing to Him. I desire to be in His will and help others come to relationship with Him.

What am I doing with my life? Who am I becoming to be? I think there's going to be a lot of reflection and evaluation in my life these coming days.

Thanks for reading! May God grant you peace and love in your life. :)