Becoming to Be...

Who am I becoming? This is the question that is running through my head. I do not want to conform to what society stamps as the norm. I do not want to be identical to someone I admire. What do I want to be? I do want to be follower of Christ and radiate His love to a broken world. I want to help an individual to become the person he or she wants to be. I want to be influential not in a controlling way but I want to empower a person to be better. I think I love cheering for people because that makes me so happy knowing that God created that person with so much potential possibilities and abilities that maybe if I gently push him or her, just maybe he or she will have the courage to go forward instead of being stagnant or go backward. In my current state, I do not feel like I am making a difference very much. I strive to be active and engage in people's life but am I encouraging or empowering someone? I wonder if I am using my potential to God's glory and if not, what is keeping me? I just have this sense that I could be doing more but maybe I am being impatient again. I think there's still a lot more lessons to be learned and God is molding me each day. How am I becoming the person that God knows I can be? I think I need to start praying more and listening to Him rather than trying to figure it out on my own. Just thoughts I been pondering about. Thanks for reading and may God bless you abundantly!

Word

Words really affect me. When someone praises or criticizes me, I take it to heart and I accept or I think about it for while. There was point in my life when I could not take criticism or compliment very well. I came to realize that I can learn from criticisms and I can take hold of compliments by not letting it become prideful in my life. I am learning that I cannot allow words to affect me so much. For example, when someone tells me I am doing a job well done, then, I need to just thank him or her, instead of not owning to the accomplishment. On the other side, when I receive criticism, I tend to think poorly of myself and I need to stop beating myself up mentally but learn from it.

What is it about a word that affect me in a such powerful or impacting ways? Growing up, I heard words that were hurtful about my appearance and even now, I cringe whenever I hear certain words. I love to listen to the lyrics of the music and it's usually determines if I like that song or not. I think the words in a speech can inspire or discourage the audience. Words in a book can change some one's life or be an entertainment when all others fail.

I value the words that's spoken and I try to say only what I mean. Sometimes it's so hard to say the word and I fumble when I talk but I hope I am genuine when I speak. I think actions can speak louder than words some days. There are so many instances when I feel like I have just the right words but then I do not have the words at that moment.

What would it be like if people used words that would build each other up rather than tearing each other down? How can words be used to bring life into a person who needs it? This is glimpse of what I am thinking these days. Thanks for reading and may the love of Christ radiate your day!